I was born on the fourteenth of july
I’m 15

I’m quite often the object of peoples desires
Which often gets me used and abused
It takes alot of Time and Money to look this Quick and Cheap
People say i’m Heartless
People say i have no Emotion
Get one thing CLEAR
Ice Water Runs In My Veins
And nobody can warm me up..
Not even enough
That i pass as human

I like to kiss in the rain
Shopping is the only sport i’m good at.
Trust me it’s a sport
I’m super blunt
I fall in love too easy
My heart gets broken alot
I think puppies are cute, don’t make fun of me you do too
Sex is nice
I have no problem with drugs
I’ve experimented with them. im not proper
I just have an opinion
My heart is black
I wish at 11:11
People sometimes label me a whore..
Sometimes they are right
I’m not a model
I dont think im pretty
I tend to lose friends fast
But i’ve come to learn they are just a stepping stone
They make me stronger
And help me believe in myself
And realize my strengths
Normally i’ll end up in a fight
Because im stupid and reckless and trying to have fun
And you have to learn to fend for yourself
Or face falling flat on your face
It’s happened to me before
And I’ve learned,
But haven’t put it to any use
You’ve got one life.
So live it
And the friends I DO have
I think I love.

I am quite A-MAZ-ING

One day someone asked me why I was the way I am
In the middle of a class
And I couldn’t answer them

It was Soul Destroying

I dont collect alot of things
But I like keeping notes people send to me

I’m still waiting for someone to rescue me
From this 2 star town
Sometimes i crave excitement
Sometimes i crave individuality
I’d like to settle down one day
I think starfish

It takes me a long time to get ready
I only love a few people
Morgan
My best friend since grade 9
Amanda
BFF since grade 5
Ezra
Who Knows. He’s crazy smart and immature but it doesnt change a thing.
Ivy
Shes the most beautiful, smartest, shiest, greatest person ever and I dont think she realizes it
Ashley
My nut case, my friend since grade six
Metaa
Since 6th fo life
Miranda
Grade 3, injury causing, shopping buddy, tacky song singing friend
John Barrett Folk
I love this kid. No Lie. Since grade six. We’ve kissed, smoked, and had sex together. He’s got my back and I’ve got his and I wouldnt want it any other way

Sometimes i’m a bitch
Sometimes i’m a friend

Fuck with me,
And i’ll destroy you
AND the ones you love and hold dear
I like the beach
I like to hold hands
Horror video games scare me
I can’t play some games alone
I’m no good at video games
Trust me.
I will be your heart’s demise
I’ve havent dated alot of people
Just because I don’t stay in love
I think i’ve found my soulmate
Recently my relationships have been falling apart
I’ll be alone forever
Maybe its for the best
And anyway,
I’m too mean to love
Nobody will EVER
Love me in the morning.

I’ve met my twin
I think porn is nasty
But i’ll make one anyway
I like to make things awkward

And i do a good job

I hate my pictures
I like attention
But Not alot

I have friends across the world
But sometimes my bunny is my one and only
He’s the reason i stay home at night
I’ve done bad
I’ve done good
I’m a lover
Not a fighter

People think i’m dumb
I do act that way
But i’m actually pretty smart
I often get what i want
I was a spoiled chils
I consider myself a princess
I have no ink
I hateee snow
I like snowboarding though
I still play dressup
I love it
I dont like to accessorize
I’m too good to fuck you
Your not good enough to fuck me
So please don’t ask
I like silver. No diamonds, especially no gems.
I’m a bitch
Get over it
Everyone in this town knows me,
The spotlight keeps me warm
I like to dress up for no reason
I hate talking to people on the phone
They can hang up and it makes me
Mad

I like giving random presents
I like getting random presents

Just ’cause

I’m very confused about my life
But it seems to work out so i’m ok
I like kids
But i never want kids of my own
I’m afraid of centipedes
I like hugs,
I cry
I like to feel small
And have someone big hold me
I giggle
I’ve never been in trouble with the law.
At least not yet

When i drink
I drink
I straighten my hair because i hate my curls,
I’ll kiss anyone
I drink alot of cranberry juice
I dont drink very much
When I do I know no moderation
I like being naked
Cause my clothes are too itchy
Sometimes i wish i could live underwater
Because i like to swim
I’ll never give up hope on you
Because i don’t like when people
give up on me
Please be patient
I promise i’m worth it
We can be friends
Just don’t ditch me tommmorow

Id like to take a dagger to my heart
down to my stomach
so i can take a real look inside myself
and truly touch what I fail to see;
a broken heart and nothing else

Im sad alot
and I cant take peoples shit
Im bad at come backs
so I choose not to respond
To prevent embarrasment
Im not good at ignoring people
I like confrontation
Not drama

My mind is somewhere I cant find
Where I wish I could be
I’m on a fast track to nothing
And I have nothing to live for
And so I will die with nothing

Few things make me happy though I smile all the time
Horseback riding. Skateboarding. Family & Friends that could be family.
I dont remember much of my past
I find myself looking at pictures from years ago
and wondering If I smiled because I was happy
or because they told me to.

Im not a positive person
I hate my job
I hate the people that surround me
I hate how people are trying to set my future how they want it
I don’t know what I want to be when I grow up
I’ll tell you when I do
I want to stay young
But I want to grow old

I love old people
and what they have to share
I hate when people who are old
try to look young
And Young people
Who try to look old

I want to enjoy life without setbacks
But Im finding that harder with the more responsibilities I have.
a job. school. animals. me.
I don’t think my parents are very influential
They helped me through the time i needed them
I need them to leave me before I leave them
whichever comes first

I hate having to hurt people
but I will if i have to.
Fight me with words?
I’ll crush you.
All talk?
Can’t you throw a punch?
You can throw a punch?
I can take it…
and I’ll sue you for every penny your worth.
No joke.

Im a whore.
Im a teenager.
Im out of control.
Ive got it all under control.
Nothing can stop me.
He can.
Where is he?
Asleep, dreaming of someone else.

I have to live with this?
Of course.
What can I do about it?
Nothing.
I dont like to be the center of attention.
I dont need the limelight.
I dont need to put mysef out there
when everyone I care about is in here.

in my heart.