…no matter how much you think you love somebody, you’ll step back as soon as the pool of their blood edges up too close.

I dont even remeber the last time i wrote on here. its kinda sad.

There are alot of things going on in my life right now and its driving me crazy but im trying to deal with it. Sooo here goes nothing.

Donna wants to punch me in the face for giving her “lip” whatever.
Ive got like..3 projects due by the end of the quarter.
Im being torn between morgan and shamarie
and work and freetim.
seriously…i had off on friday and lisa asked me to cover for her!
whatttttt is that?
hmm
people think im going to wind up preggers
and i want so much i cant have.
and this is the list of things i want:

I want to be myself and not feel the need to conform to everyone
i want to stop wishing i had money and hating people who do
I want to be a leader and stop following in other peoples footsteps
i want people to believe in me for once
I want to be thinner, prettier, smarter, stronger
i want to feel good about myself every day
I want to be able to tell my parents everything and not hide anything
i want to know everything is going to be okay
I want to know what its like to be held by someone who really loves you
i want to be perfect for myself, and for them
I want to understand why everything is the way it is
i want to be looked up to and not down on
I want to be treated fairly
i want ot be safe within the arms of someone i care about.

I want alot of things i can have.
thats life though.

auf wiedersehen